I hold it all...

...when I hold you.


I've been thinking for weeks about what I wanted to post on our 5 year anniversary. (I'm having to type this ahead of time and set it to post-date since we'll be celebrating my sister's wedding on our anniversary.)


Anyways, I've been pondering for weeks what to write. God has walked us through many highs and lows in our first five years of marriage. God has been gracious and merciful and we have learned much in these five short years about ourselves and who we are as a couple. I'm grateful for all of these experiences because I know that we wouldn't be who we are without them and that we are stronger because of them.


I think there are three things that I wanted to say about my husband and they are all tied to a song. So here goes:
The first being a snippet from Train's Marry Me.


"Marry Me
Today and Everyday..." 


Everyday we have the choice to get up and choose who we love. I'm grateful that everyday Andy chooses to love me. I'm grateful that everyday I have the opportunity to love him. Does that mean that every day is easy...no, most certainly not but even on the hard days I'd choose him.


The next is the chorus from Dave Barnes' song "God Gave Me You"
"God gave me you for the ups and downs 
God gave me you for the days of doubt 
For when I think I've lost my way 
There are no words here left to say, it's true 
God gave me you"

I'm forever grateful that the Lord saw fit to give me Andy. I can't fathom experiencing everything we have experienced these last five years with anyone else. We've had our ups and downs because that is how life is. We've had moments where one of us was lost and the beauty of marriage is that the other one gets to help you find your way back. And sometimes there are no words and that's okay too.

The last song is a song that Andy introduced me to when we were dating. I fell in love with it immediately because everything about it reminded me of our relationship. 


Anberlin's "Time and Confusion"
Woah oh! Yeah eah! Woah oh yeah eah woah oh!
Woah oh! Yeah eah! Woah oh yeah eah woah oh!

Live for today, we'll dream tomorrow
We've got big plans in sight
We'll take this city, and by nightfall
the bright lights are calling
Everything is going our way
Everything is just as we planned
This is our future for what we've heard,
and i've still got your hand

And it feels like, we could last forever
And I'm not doing this alone

When memories fade, we've got each other
When time and confusion collide
singing, "I hold it all when I hold you."
When friends walk other ways, we've got each other
I hold it all when I hold, I hold it all when I hold you

Woah oh! Yeah eah!
Woah oh Yeah eah woah oh!

We fell on hard times
This isn't the ideal
We're miles from home, doing the best that we can (the best that we can)
I wont do this without you (do this without you)
Wont do this without you so take heart
'Cause you know that you have mine

And it feels like, we could last forever
And I'm not doin' this alone.

When memories fade, we've got each other
When time and confusion collide
singing, "I hold it all when I hold you."
When friends walk other ways, we've got each other
I hold it all when I hold, I hold it all when I hold..

It's not about the money we make
It's about the passions that we ache for
What makes your heart beat faster
Tell me now, what does your body long after
I don't care now where we live
It's not where, or what, or who we were with.
I just need you in my life, so promise me again!

When memories fade, we've got each other
When time and confusion collide
singing "I hold it all when I hold you."
When friends walk other ways, we've got each other
I hold it all when I hold, I hold it all when I hold you

Woah oh! Yeah eah!
Woah oh Yeah eah woah oh!


I hold it all when I hold you, Andy, and as long as I have you it doesn't matter how much money we make, where we live, what we do, etc. As long as I have you, Andy, I know we can make it through whatever ups and downs may come our way. Thanks for holding my hand on this adventure we call life. I really do hold it all when I hold you.